I LOVE

Who would have thought me loving to run. Me with a 42DD chest size and needing to lose 80-90 lbs?  I finished a mile in fewer than 15 mins.  I raaaannnn a mile!!!!!  I was so excited I could hardly hold in my emotions. Not that anyone would of heard me with their ear buds stuff in there ears. I don’t run with one. Just my thoughts, racing around in my head as fast as my feet are running.

I love seeing my reflection of my ponytail swooshing behind my head

I love my muscles flexing

I love my grass stained shoes running under me and seeing them coming out from under my chest.

I love feeling my bones.

I love that my ring is getting to big.

I love that my mind is more powerful then my body and can convince it to go faster, and left one more weight.

I love feeling the sweat dripping down my neck and face.

I love going into an air conditioned room when I’m covered in sweat.

I’m looking forward  to being really hugged and lifted off the ground.

I’m looking forward to making love 80lbs lighter.

I’m looking forward to running a 5k instead of walking; then a 10k; then half marathon.

I don't feel well today. Had another head ache. I didn't eat a big breakfast today like I have been. I need to plan better for foods to last longer. My kids would eat every single fruit I buy within hours of returning from the grocery store. It's just proved to me how important eating breakfast is. I'm looking forward to bodypump at the Ymca. I'm losing pounds and can't wait until it's enough to buy know clothes.

A little bit of everything

So I didn't get much sleep last night had an awful headache, I woke up feeling like I was being choked it hurt so bad. Prayed so hard to be released from that awful pain. I also had an awful awful dream. One of those dreams; I've been praying I wouldn't think of again. Just awful. Because of this bad night I've been extra sensitive today. On edge. I'm sick of people telling me what i need to do and what i should do; however those people are not a single WORKING mom of 3 kids plus 1 for the summer. They think it's just as easy doing as it is saying. I don't have endless time on my hands. I am always in a rush always late always behind. Everyone knows how hard it is when you have a spouse or at least another adult in the house. It is only me. I have to do it all. I'm surprised and (so thankful it didn't) that my van didn't blow up. It had no engine coolant in it. Those are the thing i forget and wish i didn't have to worry about. Wish I had a husband for.

 Not saying I'm not capable just saying it would be nice to not have to think of everything. And even better to not to forget everything. I get tired of being the only adult and having to fuss and repeat what I say over and over to my kids, "it time to settle down it's late it's bed time." I going from the time i get up around 630ish until after 10pm. almost daily. Sleeping in on the weekend is 7 a.m.  God you know my struggles; I understand your test; but Lord I am so tired; I wish and pray for peace. Please Lord bless me with a friendship built on your words. Thank you for all you do and all that is yet to come.

On another note I didn't let it get to me for long;  I went to my work out and it felt great I needed that and was so glad to have gone. Just over a month ago I would have just eaten a bag of chips and 20 oz coke zero or McDonald's. 

I was reading another blogger site on weigh loss; she lost 130lbs so amazing and she talked about the things she missed about being fat; I don't believe I will miss anything. I already don't miss being too tired to play with my son; I don't miss laying on the sofa all Sunday afternoon; and I don't miss McDonald's. I do look forward to buying a pretty bra that truly fits me; skinny jeans, calf length boots, and most of all my kids being proud of me. NOT SECRETLY EMBARRASSED.  I look forward to really looking in the mirror and seeing hard work, and God's real design for me. I look forward to thriving. I feel if i can do this I will be strong enough to all the other things that fear keeps be from doing. It's only possible with the LORD on my side. I know he is there.

Crazy Week

This week has been really tough. Very stressful and hard to stay healthy and to exercise. I've been looking at a lot of sights and learning a lot. I want to try to start eating a clean diet, it would be to hard for the summer since I have planted my own garden. It is pretty nice for someone that doesn't really know a whole lot about gardening. Just very fond memories of gardening with my dad when I was a kid. Really miss my big Pops. I've only lost a pound this last week. I will accept that. I tried body pump last night and really loved it. I was pushed; and didn't stop. I'm surprised I'm not more sore. Everyone told me I would be. My knee is a little bit. I have a torn ligament. Doc says not bad enough for surgery. Just got to get going. Do giving up.

More on my weight loss

I've steady been working out but didn't loss any weight in the month of May. I know a friend who has lost a lot and had really built some muscle he is his like Caption America. LOL So i asked him if he had any idea. And lucky me he is going to help me. He told me to write now everything I eat and my work out so he can advise me on what to change. I'm so thankful.

Cleaning the oven the easy way!!!

So I've tried some things i saw on pinterest.com
I'm sad to say this was my oven and i needed to clean it so i gave it a shot.

Use a small amount of baking soda, around a cup;just enough to cover the oven door; add enough water to make it a little runny, rub it all over the oven door; I didnt try it inside the over but I'm sure it will work.

Let is sit for 20 minutes or longer, depending on how bad it is. Now I didn't read this  next part on Pinterest but why not try it I use it to clean everything else. I heated up a 1/2 cup of vinegar, poured it on the oven door and WOW I have a hand held streamer and it didn't do this good of a job nor was it so easy. You have to try this and I'm sure this would clean a BBQ this good too.

Amazing Weekend

So Sorry it hasn't taken me to long to post this. I have an good weekend. It was super needed. We've been stressing out, since my DD's father hasn't paid child support since January. However we were blessed and given $100.00 in gift cards so we could do some shopping. I really planned and budgeted so it would last. Amce had an awesome buy one get one free (BOGO) sale. I also used coupons and saved over $107.46. It felt so great. We cleaned up the house a little, and I packed us a great lunch, and took the little 1's to Wye Island trails. They had a great time, it was so funny, they never walked in the woods before. My 6yr old said I think there are monkeys in here, and just as I say no there isn't a bird makes this crazy noise and if you didn't know better would think it was a monkey. Besides the crazy bad ticks the woods were so beautiful. We picked out shapes in the trees, and looked for flowers. They really loved walking on the fallen trees. There were afraid at first, but felt better as the hike/walk went on. I loved the time with them. We were on a quest part of the Maryland Park Quest, however we couldn't find what we were looking for so my DD says; we should of brought A1 she would of found it. She is the smartest. So love when they talk nice about each other.

http://www.dnr.state.md.us/parkquest/index.asp Photos of WYE ISLAND.